all love and my insecurities are so insane. love reaching deep into my guts and pulling me out.
light in your kitchen
your hands on my hips. wrapping around me. kissing my neck and my ear.
he talked to me about his insecurities about sexual performance and dick size. i almost laughed because he has a big dick! and told him about the sex - that of course at first it's crazy and animalistic - and then you get to know eachother - and that i don't just like him because of the sex - i like who he is and the feelings i feel on my insides. it was a good talk.
we went to the halloween dance together. he looked so fucking cute and i love him so much and he is so good to me. earlier in the day we stumbled out of the house and went and walked around teddy roosevelt island. found our way to a log alongside the river and sat next to each other and vibed.
we had sex in the shower today
woke up and touched eachother. i made cookies and
we were kissing and loving in bed for awhile. he said while i was on top of him. light streaming in through the windows and the breeze. you are so beautiful. have i told you that today? i shook my head and he kissed me and told me how beautiful i was on my insides and my face. how he wanted to study all the parts of my face. and how i was beautiful because of the way i treat the people around me and if beauty were measured by the people that love you, that mine would be immeasurable. i clamped up a little because i felt like it was kind of trite and who knows who he has said this to before and i am still trying to tell my head to shut the fuck up. and
we wound up in the shower. and he soaped me from head to foot and kissed me so hard. and i soaped him up back and fingered his ass just a tiny bit. rubbed on his taint. soon i'm going to play with his ass some more he totally loves it. and then he sat on the ground in the shower and bent me over and ate me out while i stroked his cock. it didn't feel especially amazing but the whole situation was just really hot. and then eventually he stood me up and threw me against the shower wall and choked me and fucked me and he said "you're so fucking sexy. did you know you're my favorite fuck toy?" then. "i want you to be ready to catch my come in your mouth. but don't swallow it." so i caught it in my mouth and he looked down said "let me see." i opened my mouth and he just looked at me and then nodded so i was allowed to swallow. it was really hot.
he told me i was different from any other person he had ever met.
and he asked me what i wanted for christmas. that means we're still gonna be together for christmas right? right. he said "i want to spread you over all the parts of my life."
iloveyou and i can't wait to hear you say it because i know you do too.